2 weeks left...

My time in malaysia is another 2 more weeks. I hate to admit it, but I really hate the fact that I'm leaving so fast, I really need more time, more time to relax, more time to find myself, before I go back. I haven't had enough rest, maybe I'm just trying to avoid all the stuffs back there. Maybe I'm just not ready..? This 2 weeks had passed by so fast and comfortably that I don't feel like going back to melbourne. My results came out, it was alright, not too good, but yeah, I'm glad I don't have to resit for any exams. I should be thankful with my results considering the amount of work I've done.

What should I do next..? What's more important..? For me to feel happy..? Or to be responsible to everyone..? To accomplish what I should.. or give up.. because I know I'm no good for it..? What's up next..? What's gonna happen..? I really don't want to think bout it, yeah, my hols are really routined and could be boring some times, but I know, my family will always be there for me, protecting me and supporting me. They are the ones who will forgive you when everyone around you refuses to.I've always wished someone could be there 24/7, giving me support and listening to the way I feel, but I know it's hard for that to happen.

It's my holidays, I should be relaxing.. but knowing the fact that I'm leaving soon.. I really have to start making important decisions. This is where I'm not good at! I'm running out of time.. seriously.. maybe I was too busy relaxing.. until it finally hit me..

Should I pursue what I believed in..? How to find back my self-confidence..? How to forget things that I'm supposed to forget..? How to forgive those that betrayed my friendship before..? How to handle things, feelings and everything...? How i wish life was all about what I'm doing now..playing mahjong, having supper and chatting with friends.. it's boring.. but yeah.. at least I'm comfortable with it...! I just feel so hopeless.... Wats next..?