Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Worried like mad...

Gosh.. I just can't help but to keep thinking that results is coming out this thursday! I'm so worried on the outcome of my exams this time around. I really can't tell what's gonna happen.. Sometimes, I wished I had put in more effort to change things around, like doing my tutes regularly, going for every lecture and every tute, doing all the required readings and all the supplementary readings, going throught the I-lecture, going for all those extra tutorials and consultations, paying attention in lectures and tutes and not being a slacker. The fact is that I haven't done all those stuffs.. and every new year or semester that comes by.. I'll tell myself I'm gonna do it.... and over and over again.. I've failed in doing so.. shows how USELESS I am.... somehow time passes by so fast.. that I don't even have time to concentrate fully on my studies (this is just an excuse!!!)

I'm already having nightmares, I check my e-mail from time to time to see if Melbourne Uni sends me some e-mail to tell me to sit for some supplementary examination or something like that. I check the guidelines for marking law papers, turns out that they need 2 person out of a 3 person board to fail someone and if they could they hardly fail someone.. or at least that's what the guideline says.. anyways.. I really hope that's the truth! I really hope I don't fail anything at all.. esp CORP LAW and ACE.. gosh.... I don't want to go back for summer.. I'm enjoying a very simple life here.. don't want it to end just after 3 weeks.. I haven't played my mahjong.. I haven't gone on a trip... I haven't wore my liverpool jersey out to support them at a mamak stall or a pub or etc.. I haven't had proper seafood yet.. I haven't had proper japanese food yet.. I haven't done so many stuffs.. I don't want it to end right here...! PLEASE................... don't let it be.. =~~

Well, at this moment, I really can't do much anymore, but to keep praying and have faith.. whatever the outcome is, it's because of my own action.. whether it's good or it's bad.. so, let's just hope that everything turns out well.. I really can't wait anymore.. the anxiety is killing me! Good luck and all the best to everyone... hope everyone does well as well..

4 comments:

Cleverkiwibird said...

~oo! stress. sigh

Dr Raymond, previously Kon-sama and pre-previously Rurouni) said...

Like I always tell MK,Why worry abt smth that has not happen n make urself feel bad?There's also the chances of it not happening right?And since u already have the fear of failing,it means u r mentally prepared so IF it actually happens u'll b more well prepared to accept the fact and IF it doesn't happen u'll b EXTREMELY grateful that u've passed yea?

Damien Wong said...

one word PARANOID!
chill le..it's not like u can change the outcome if u scare the hell out of urself...

living on borrowed time said...

exactly! paranoia is not needed dai kor

and NO they wont change your results after they key it in....

(unless its something serious)

but what are the odds right?

um sai kan cheong...

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Char