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18 March 2007, mark this day.. haha.. finally i wrote something again on the blog.. u guys won't have to see the word jakarta first when u ever visit my blog.. It's been quite some time.. 2 months.. since i wrote something.. It's not that I do not want to write something.. is just that I really got nothing to write.. haha.. nothing so interesting as for me to write on the blog and nothing so demotivating that I could write on the blog.. (in other words, just lazy ler.. hehe)

Well, tomorrow will be the fourth week of my semester.. what have I achieved so far..? Nothing.. I set myself into a mission this year.. to improve myself overall... guess I haven't really done anything to improve myself thus far... From the way I look at it, this would be the final year I would make a large impact on who I am and who I'll be for the next one or two decades to come.. Changes have to come now and fast.. I had a chat with su san yesterday.. and I really realize lack of self-esteem is really one of the biggest problems that I'm facing with.. I really do not know how I'm gonna go out of uni to face the real society if don't have enough self-esteem.. gosh.. I think I would have to change jobs every 3 months..

I realized patience is another thing that I need to have.. I realize my lack of patience has caused me drastically in many things.. not to mention.. poker.. I'm a really impatient poker player.. I do not like the slow pace of the game.. I prefer to speed things up... which means.. being one of the first to get kicked out of the game.. hahaha.. it sucks to sit out and wait you know... well.. guess... this is another area I wished I could change..

Well, that's about it.. I don't want to bore you guys with my self-motivation.. haha.. I realize long posts aren't really what readers want ( see.. improving on blogging skills.. damn.. I'm lame)