Css Ball...

Sudden cold, sudden hot, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, I think I'm sick.. but I just can't go to bed... I had lik 5 hours plus of sleep for two consecutive days... thanks to the commerce ball.. Daniel and I were the earliest to start queuing on Sunday! We were so kind that we let someone else get to the front of the que.. Well, hats off to Daniel, he initially wanted to stay there fore 24 hours, I wonder if anyone else would ever wanted to do that. He planned everything worked out the shifts and on top of it.. stayed the longest there in the cold.. trust me.. it was cold.. And hats off also to Damien who accompanied Daniel throughout the night..these are two people who are not obliged to stay there overnight for any reason.. but they chose to do so...

Anyways, something that I always tried hindering has finally backfired.. well.. my bad.. after all who are we to judge or talk about what other people do.. when I personally can't handle my life perfectly.. I am no one to ever judge what others do.. they do things for a reason.. they won't do it if they do not have a reason I guess... and they won't keep it a secret if they have no reason to do so.. So, like I've said this many times.. Well, I'll say it again, I would like to apologise to those that I've tried to interfere about their judgements and things they do in their personal lives.. I'll try my best not to repeat it again.. you guys can choose not to tell me anything.. I won't ask and I won't blame anyone.. for after all.. it was my mistake.. Sorry for being a busybody and such a gossip bastard, I know what I should do..

I figured out for a long time in the shower today, I figured out that my time here at Melbourne never really took off.. my heart lies somewhere else.. Maybe I'm just not right for Melbourne.. not the other way round.. I already know deep inside.. my decision end of this year.. I make plans.. but never work them out.. I screwed up a couple of things here and there.. I broke down in pain last semester.. I regret over and over again the things that I knew I should have done.. I fear for the worst that could happen.. yeah.. you can say I have no ambition.. I'm selfish.. I'm a coward... daddy and mommy's little boy... but to me.. nothing's more important than my family.. my future can wait..