A picture paints a thousand words...

Kenny Sia was promoting this blog and I find the posts quite cute and unique compared to all the other blogs I've seen before.. so.. yeah.. if you have time to procrastinate.. go have a look at her blog.. she even drew a picture of that guy that blurblur has on her msn display pic in princess hours..

Btw.. did you all know.. that it's gonna rain for the next 4 days.. and the maximum temperature is 15 degrees..? Gosh.. gloomy days coming by.. and it has to happen during exam period!

Another home sick post...

Well.. it's the time of the year again.. exam time.. and this is the time that makes me think of home the most.. The time when you have others sharing your worry with you eventhough they are not taking your exams.. the time when you actually have someone caring all your other wellfare besides studying.. you don't have to worry about washing your clothes, cooking your meals, doing your own grocery and find your own way to the exam venue...

That explains it.. I'm a wooze.. haha.. I'm mommy and daddy's little boy.. well.. I really miss being young sometimes.. at least you have less worries.. at least you don't have that much burden.. In a year's time, I would have to start worrying about paying my phone bills, car loan, installments, installments and more installments! Gosh.. I really can't imagine.. how it would be.. What happenned to those days.. when all you needed to worry about is attending school and getting good grades..? I guess.. we are all grown ups now.. it's time.. we take over some burden from our parents and let them be happy from now on.. that's what that's keep me going.. that's the only thing on my mind.. reducing their financial burden by end of this year.. so that they don't have to worry about me anymore.. and maybe it's time for me to repay them.. for raising me.. and providing me with all I ever need.. what more could I ask for..?

I really hope that sometimes.. someone back home would ever stumble upon this blog.. so that they'll know how much I miss home.. it's hard for me to tell just how much i miss home to them.. I'm just too egoistic to tell my family members how much I wish I was home..

Oh well.. ramblings and ramblings.. maybe it's the weather.. it's making me feel really cold.. maybe it's the stress of coming thus far this semester and not wanting to just stop here.. whatever it is.. I really need some warmth now... time to switch on the heater..

On another note...

Happy belated 21st birthday to my bimbotic friend.. CC Yeoh.. thanks for being there in lectures and having arguments with me.. hehe

Strive..

Well.. it seems like... my last post was really pessimistic and all.. I guess it's hard to change sometimes.. since that post... I've been in a lot of debates about the existence of an idealistic world in everyone.. and in most of the arguments.. I tend to have sidetracked and said some bull shit I never meant to say.. I think that sometimes I'm too studborn and only accept my own view.. that is.. Kee Hong's conservative principles of life.. I guess.. yeah... everyone has their own ideal world and everyone strives for it.. but does it really happen..? I don't know..

On another note.. guess my efforts paid off.. or maybe I'm lucky.. I worked slightly harder compared to last semester.. and the results from all my mid-sems and assignments were quite encouraging.. I've never had this feeling before.. it's like the same feeling I had in first year first semester.. just that this time around.. I had to make much more sacrifices.. well.. that bring me to another issue.. does your effort in everything always pays off..? Or the more effort you put in.. the more you expect.. and the more disappointed you get when things don't go your way... Well.. I hope it does.. a week more from my first paper.. and I hope to strive on.. and achieve something this time around...

Well.. last friday marks an end to Semester One of year 3, this semester is really a different experience for me.. learning more stuffs, accepting new cultures of lifestyle, learning more about my friends and the stuff that I never knew they would do.. Well.. I guess, what matters the most is you're happy with what you do.. life is about being selfish anyways sometimes.. All in all, I feel that I have been more disciplined..more focused.. my thoughts do not wander around that much anymore, I've stopped seeking for idealistics.. I'm down to earth.. I don't know whether that's a good thing.. but it keeps me focused.. well.. that's the most important part for now.. the rest can wait..

Anyways.. good luck in studying to everyone.. I hope my recent posts has not bore anyone or brought in any negative thoughts to everyone.. like I said before.. everything's a phase.. everyone has phases.. it just depends whether they move on..

It's hard to be me..

Sometimes I find it hard to be myself.. a person juggling so many thoughts in my mind.. It feels hard worrying about studies, assignments, chores, lectures, tutorials and going to the gym. The fact that I'm a pessimist and a person with low self-esteem makes things even worse.. sometimes a person like me can find it really hard to pass a day without even being paranoid.. I feel like.. I'm the exact person my dad is.. he's is paranoid all the time and worries bout small little stuffs like me.. being robbed or kidnapped on the way home from mamak, my sister not calling back from work to tell him that she's coming back soon, whether the shower heater has been switched off when leaving the house, whether the car has been locked when he left the car, whether all the doors in the house are properly locked, a mysterious phone call from no one, and also every single bark that the dog makes at night.. sometimes, I feel it for him.. cos I'm just like him..

It's not easy being like that.. when everything you ever thought of was the negative side of a situation.. the negative consequences of a decision.. everytime during an exam.. I triple check the MCQ paper.. to make sure I did not mark on the MCQ paper wrongly.. and sometimes.. when I have no time to check my student ID.. I get worried that I might have written my name wrongly.. I get worried about the tutor and lecturers know that I gave them a bad review in the QOT.. ok I was a bit mean there.. but I was merely telling the truth... I worry bout giving out my name and date of birth to the telemarketer.. I worry and worry and worry all day.. for stupid things..

Not to mention.... I worry what people think of me.. whether they are pissed off with me or whatsoever.. I'm skeptical of human behaviour.. I'm vary of their actions.. I analyse them.. before I trust them.. I don't merely trust them.. I'm skeptical of true love.. and trust in more material stuffs like money.. I believe nothing is more important than the love,care and attention u get from your family.. so I try to give everything I have to them.. I believe you might just walk out on the street one day and get knock down by car.. I worry when I rush by a traffic light that is turning red.. worrying whether I got the ticket.. U can call people like me being a realist.. but sometimes.. it's not easy.. it really is not easy to be me..

Humanity and its downfall..

Well, it has been quite a while since I wrote something.. I think blogging is sort of seasonal.. haha.. u tend to blog a lot during a certain period of time and then you just decide that you're too lazy to blog and just stop blogging for a while.. Well.. all I can say is.. nothing much has happenned.. during this few weeks..... a lot of birthdays coming up.. and to those who I haven't really have a blog entries for your birthdays ( Raymond, Veronica & Isaac).. I would like to wish all of you.. HAPPY GETTING OLD! Hahahahhahaha... Hope you guys enjoy becoming old.. jk jk.. I'm becoming old soon also lerrr.. and I can feel it... ehhe.. well hope you guys had fun on your birthdays...

Talking bout humanity, I was on my way to Max Brenner's yesterday to have a drink with Damien, Sheanee, 24, Ashley and Jo.. I met this chinese guy probably in his 40's or 50's.. behind a dark alley.. he asked me for money as he had lost his wallet and he needed money for bus fare.. for one moment.. I really wanted to give him some money.. but I really thought.. was it wise to do so..? I really thought it might have been real.. at the same time.. I didn't want to be conned.. Besides that, I really didn't want him to do not want him to think that he could do it to others as well.. It was weird.. he saw two caucasian ladies walking in front.. he didn't ask money from them.. but me.. well.. maybe because I was alone and I was Asian.. I felt quite bad after that.. as I thought.. he might have told the truth.. but yet again.. what are the chances right..? It's hard to tell.. It's already hard enough to giv 100% trust to people you know.. needless to say.. it's almost impossible to believe someone you don't know..

Oh well, it just shows.. how weak humanity is and how weak trust is between human beings.. Well.. as I'm writing this blog.. I felt even worse.. as he was an Asian.. and for an Asian without much money or knowledge to survive in Australia.. it isn't an easy thing.. they don't get any unemployment benefits or whatsoever.. Aihhhsss.. I'm just confused.. I was quite afraid that he might just take out a knife and point it at me.. gosh.. that would have been frightening..

Mourinho for stand up comedy... WHY NOT..? He's funny

Well.. I was contemplating whether I should get up at 4.45 in the morning as I went to bed at about 3.00 a.m this morning. The noise of the wind outside the Verve Apartments just annoys my sleep.... It sounds like someone is constantly flapping it's large wings or some lousy banner hanging outside the apartment is being constantly blown by the wind.. it was neither.. it was just the sound of the wind.. gosh... it was annoying.. maybe it's the positioning of the building that makes it even worse.. sometimes the wind noises coming from my neighbours sound as though that the apartment is haunted.. the noise is just annoying and could be freaky at times.. our main door has the ability of opening and closing by itself if it's not locked.. how amazing..!?

Anyways, I just can't stand Mourinho being a soar loser.. he is too arrogant that he lost in a semi-final CL against Liverpool.. he said Chelsea was the better team and that they were more eager to win the match in the 120 minutes.. Well.. it just amazes me considering Liverpool had two goals disallowed and a header hitting the crossbar.. so.. Which team were more eager to win..? He just can't accept the fact that the Anfield crowd was just too passionate for his players.. The Chelsea team basically put Drogba in front and just kept putting long balls into his path.. hoping that he could lay it off to Joe Cole or Kalou.. or getting lucky by scoring.. I guess that was just not the day for one of the dirtiest player in premiership.. If there was someone who could compete with Cristiano Ronaldo in term's of diving.. I would say that person is Drogba.. Well.. back to Mourinho.. so much for his quadruple of trophies.. I think the only cup he would get is the Carling Cup which is like the size of a urinal compared to the CL or the premiership.. He just amuses me by calling Liverpool a small club.. just a reminder.. Liverpool have won 5 Champions League and are on a good position to win a 6th one.. and Liverpool's trophy cabinet is probably 5 times larger than Chelsea.. so I guess.. Mourinho should just become a stand up comedian.. cos he's sarcastically funny!

Random blabbing

Yawnzzzzzzzz... I'm really finding it hard to write something interesting here.. as my life isn't that interesting as I would say. Today audit mid-semester results were released and I wasn't too impressed but wat the heck.. it's only 10% and I shall not stress about it and concentrate on my audit assignment to catch back the marks that I've lost. TIMETABLE FOR EXAMS ARE OUT..! I have exams on the 6th, 12,13 and 15th of June.. the timetable is kinda bad.. but I like the fact that I'm ending the pain early.. but another question pops up.. wat the hell am I gonna do after exams...? Central Australia..? Adelaide.. or Tasmania? Well, if i get the free ticket from the IH cafe' night I would definitely head to Europe or the States.. but what are the chances..?

Well.. I can foresee a lazy winter break.. where all I do is go to the gym.. watch tonnes and tonnes of TVB series and maybe start watching some English series just to improve my English.. haha.. what an entertaining way to improve my English..! I really don't know what else could I do.. any suggestions or any plans guys..? New Zealand sounds interesting...... but I'm quite sure I'll be dead broke after that.. a winter vacation job..? NAH.. look at my lazy face.. you think I'll ever want to work..? Heck.. if I had a choice.. I would be sitting and just waiting for money to grow on trees or come out from my poop.. haha..

Btw, I won't be surprised to see the buildings at Putrajaya back in Malaysia just starts to collapse one after another.. the recent happenings at Putrajaya just amuses me and probably the rest of the Malaysians.. How could a state of the art building in one of the most important place in the country have ceilings collapse and pipes bursting after barely one or two years..? This just shows that Malaysians know how to build something and never knew how to maintain it.. just look at the Bukit Jalil Sports complex.. need I say more..? Or is it Malaysians are just plain ignorant until something major happens...? Well.. I don't know..