Strive..

Well.. it seems like... my last post was really pessimistic and all.. I guess it's hard to change sometimes.. since that post... I've been in a lot of debates about the existence of an idealistic world in everyone.. and in most of the arguments.. I tend to have sidetracked and said some bull shit I never meant to say.. I think that sometimes I'm too studborn and only accept my own view.. that is.. Kee Hong's conservative principles of life.. I guess.. yeah... everyone has their own ideal world and everyone strives for it.. but does it really happen..? I don't know..

On another note.. guess my efforts paid off.. or maybe I'm lucky.. I worked slightly harder compared to last semester.. and the results from all my mid-sems and assignments were quite encouraging.. I've never had this feeling before.. it's like the same feeling I had in first year first semester.. just that this time around.. I had to make much more sacrifices.. well.. that bring me to another issue.. does your effort in everything always pays off..? Or the more effort you put in.. the more you expect.. and the more disappointed you get when things don't go your way... Well.. I hope it does.. a week more from my first paper.. and I hope to strive on.. and achieve something this time around...

Well.. last friday marks an end to Semester One of year 3, this semester is really a different experience for me.. learning more stuffs, accepting new cultures of lifestyle, learning more about my friends and the stuff that I never knew they would do.. Well.. I guess, what matters the most is you're happy with what you do.. life is about being selfish anyways sometimes.. All in all, I feel that I have been more disciplined..more focused.. my thoughts do not wander around that much anymore, I've stopped seeking for idealistics.. I'm down to earth.. I don't know whether that's a good thing.. but it keeps me focused.. well.. that's the most important part for now.. the rest can wait..

Anyways.. good luck in studying to everyone.. I hope my recent posts has not bore anyone or brought in any negative thoughts to everyone.. like I said before.. everything's a phase.. everyone has phases.. it just depends whether they move on..