My life has some what become like a daily waste to me. I get up after at least 9 hours of sleep. Even some times when I have 10 hours of sleep i still complain that I'm tired and sleepy. Something is so wrong with me. I don't seem to have the right motivation to be doing things i should be doing. I seem to have gone from bad to worse. I really don't know what's going on with my life. It seems like I spend half a day thinking about unnecessary stuffs and another half of the day sleeping or just wasting my time in front of the laptop.
I've got tonnes of assignments, tute works, and revision of my studies to go through. At this rate, I seriously think I would end up in Malaysia jus frying char kuay teow or sell chicken rice. No kidding! I know I shouldn't live such a life, I know there's more to my life. I know I wasn't here just for me to waste my time or just to wait for summer to come by. There's gotta be more, I'm sure there's gotta be more than this.
Sometimes, I think I choose to be like this, I choose to be the way I am when I know there are more things that I could do or think about. I know a what's going on and it's just me who's preventing myself in excelling in life. My ever-same attitude which is so pessimistic and my lack of courage and determination is preventing me from achieving so much more in life. I think I'm a quitter in many ways. I know what's wrong.. it's just that, I never put an effort to change it. My favourite phrase in my life is.. 'I duno ler, screw it, everything will fall in place eventually.' That's rubbish! I know for sure, everything wouldn't just be there without me putting in any effort. I feel I ain't much different from those idiotic ah bengs going around and collecting protection fees. I'm just like one of them...
I need a change! I want to change! I want to have more than just wasting my day with some routine! I want to be different! BUT HOW..?
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for goodness sake, u already know wats wrong with u, u know wats ur weakness, u know wat u wan in life! jus change ur damn mentality, have more courage, have more confidence in ur life! u r jus goin thru the downs of ur life.. wake up now n do something with ur life!!!! no point dwelling over the negative things in life for it will not make u happy but instead it makes u feel like shit! so change ur thinking, change ur mentality n have more self confidence!!!!
dear anonymous, put your name ler next time.. hahahhahaha.. anyways.. i already figured out, gone tru wat i'm supposed to do, I'll not just waste my time.. from now onwards..
haha..i figured if i put my name my comments won't be effective..so it doesn't matter who i am..it's u that it matters..it's urself that needs a boost!!remember u r stronger than u think!!
well, put your name next time ler, i already know who you are anyways...
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