Sometimes.... if i could...

Sometimes... u just don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning.. u just want to continue sleeping and ignore what is going on outside. You know that your day is gonna suck no matter how positive u take it. U know that the bad stuffs just won't stop coming to you. Besides that, u know there is nothing u can do to change this situation. U just have to put your face right at it and get smacked! That's how shitty I feel right now. Nothing to look forward to.. and sometimes when u really need someone to talk to... u find that.. there's no one to talk to.. haha.. how sucky can things be sometimes..? Well, I can't do much.. but to take my day as positively as possible, starting off my day with 5ive's song.. KEEP ON MOVIN'... "get on up, when you're down, baby take a good look around, I know it's not much, but it's okay, keep on movin' on anyway!"

If I could, I just want to walk away from all these problems and go somewhere else.... but where can i go to..? another shit hole..? When I left for melbourne, i thought things would start to look good for me in a new environment.. but the path that i walk on seems to narrow down with dimmer lights.. maybe i need a change of environment every now and then..? maybe i'm just weak.. not being able to go thru every obstacle or challenge that is in front of me.. but.. hey.. i'm an ordinary person with simple needs... all i want is a smooth ride in life.. well.. guess that's what everyone wants.. but few of them could actually get it.. i talked to this good friend of mine.. who's on the same boat.. and understands the way i feel... i felt much better.. but he's much luckier, he has the opportunity toleave everything behind.. start everything anew.. somewhere else.. but guess i just don't have time for it.. i'm stuck at melbourne for at least another one year and a half.. i really don't see changes.. hopefully there's a silver lining behind every dark cloud.. at the end of the day, that's the way life is.. especially when you don't know what u really want.. u just have to see it through.. hoping for something good to finally arrive... HAHA.. sorry for all the negativity.... hope to post something happier as the day goes by.. but guess no ones reading.. so it's ok.. it's for my own viewing!