Sometimes words from others really bothers me, but I think I've learnt to listen only to what i want and reject whatever that I refuse to. Some people say pointless remarks about you to bring you down. You don't understand why they do it, but they just seem to do it all the time. Yeah, I admit I've done it to others before, but not to the extend that I don't know when to talk and when not to not talk.
I know you think I'm a loser, for not being able to do certain things. If it makes you happy, I admit, I'm a loser. So..? Does it make any difference to you? I am what I am.. I don't think it affects you...
Sometimes you want to change, sometimes you wanna be different, but people seems reluctant to let you do so, they seem reluctant to let you change for their own benefits. It is as if, I have to be the way that they like to entertain them or amuse them. I am low in self-confidence and believe, but I don't think that should be the reason for someone to step over my head and bring me down over and over again. I think it's unfair for someone to take advantage of others when they know they're weak or when they know they're weaknesses. Maybe you could do that, just not all the time.
I know I might be a good for nothing fool, but at least, have a little respect for who I am. I am not your floor mat, that you can step on everyday or a toilet bowl that you can sit on everyday. If you think I'm gonna let you do that, you're wrong.. really wrong.
Anyways, I believe it happenned for a reason, a reason for me to believe that I shouldn't just sit and wait for others to take advantage of my weaknesses. It gives me a reason to get back to my old self, one which has much more confidence. I know it's hard to prove to others what I am, but at the end of the day, I think it's more important for me to prove to myself that I'm worth something.
All I can say is, you can judge me however you want, you can bring me down all you want, but I just want to let you know that when you are down and you are in need of some one to help you, I won't be there, I'll just sit and laugh at you (sorry for being harsh, but that's how you treated me).
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dun think u shd care so mch bout wat other ppl think bout u... what matters most is what u think bout urself..
u're a loser if u think u're one... u're not if u think u're not.. it's all in the mind... really... trust me..
and for the record, i don't think u're a loser! AT ALL... *hugz* take care kee hong!!!!
Sometimes ppl are aware of the probs they hav/r facing...but as time passes by...most ppl would relapse to that old self which they detest so much...its like drug addict...very hard to get over the addiction though u know its wrong...this is juz the beginning of our training...we muz try hard to properly relearn the basics and follow thru as we play the game.
"I am what I am"... copyright!!!
dude! you're not a loser lar!
in anycase, i do take what you have to say seriously. go read one of the recent posting 'flash back' on my blog.
and remember to fucking study for the exam!
cheers!
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